My dear Nathan,
It’s been 17 months since you joined our family, and about 8 months since you left us – at least until we meet each other again. There have been so many things that have happened, so many things that we want to tell you.
Mommy found a new job after her maternity leave. She is now working with Daddy! We have so much work to do each day, but are thankful that Daddy and Mommy are able to see each other so often. It really helped us recover, being able to spend so much time with one another to keep ourselves occupied.
4 months ago, we found out that Mommy is pregnant again! We call your sibling, “Sib” – Unlike how you were growing up, Sib kinda crave for attention. In fact, at just 2 months, people were already giving up their seats on the train for Mommy and Sib. Mommy told me that only happened for you and her when you were about 4-5 months old. Daddy also had some friends secretly asking him if Mommy was pregnant. That’s how it is like with Sib. Always wanting to be acknowledged.
Recently, we also found out that Sib is a girl! Your Mommy kinda suspected it for some time. Yes, that also means she is your baby sister! She is the first girl in Daddy’s side of the family, following your 3 other boy cousins who are still in the UK, and of course, you.
Daddy is sad because he knows that you and Sib won’t be able to see each other. However, when your little sister is old enough, Daddy will tell her all about you. The precious times we spent with you. Your favourite movies, IP Man (1/2/3), our time together at Bali, how big grew to be in Mommy’s womb and the stretch marks that you left her with, the c-section scar that she now has to remind us of you, your beautiful eyes from Daddy and kissable lips from Mommy, the mole, right above your lips, and of course, the day you left us and the funeral service we had for you.
In our eyes, you are the most beautiful baby boy we could have ever dream of having. Daddy and Mommy will always remember you as our perfect brave little baby boy.
Daddy will take good care of Mommy and Sib. Daddy wishes you could be here, to see her when she joins us. But Daddy knows that God has a different plan for all of us – Me, you, Mommy and Sib.
Nathaniel and Sib – We love the both of you very much, and always will.
With Love, Daddy and Mommy.